Reflections on pain

This is day three of the first week that I've been taking the triple dose of Imunovir three times a day and so far I actually feel fine. No chest pains even :-) My mood has been more relaxed despite the lack of change in my life and that is noteworthy. Issues with my hubby still arise, but at least I am not so overly anxious about them. I did get to mass one day this week and found that that really comforted my spirit and helped me deal with a very difficult temptation I've been struggling against. We're talking real temptation, not the, "I so want that piece of chocolate and can no longer resist," kind of stuff. The battles I face are the ones which are mortally threatening to my salvation and the desire to give up the fight is so appealing, especially when I am so overwhelmed with other issues in my life- like my health. Yet, in some ways, I think that God is using this mysterious malady of mine to strengthen me against these enemies of my soul, i.e. the world, the flesh and the devil. While I totally abhor the pain and the consternation these symptoms have caused in my marriage, in some way I believe that they're helping make me strong. Not necessarily strong physically, but rather it is humbling me to recognize my complete inability to be good without God and to show me that He will not leave me in my darkest hour and in Him I am made strong.  The sunny weather does help make for a chipper spirit too, but that's just a side note.
My daughter got out of her crib today after I put her in there for being naughty. I am downstairs and I hear this noise of a handle being turned. Rushing up the stairs I look to her door to discover she is standing there with this adorable look of guilt on her face- yes, it sounds like an oxymoron, but that's how she looked. I put her back into bed and of course she screamed, but oh well. So now I need to find a toddler bed. What does this have to do with maladies? Absolutely nothing, but being no one really reads this anyway, I thought I might add some non-relative personal  information just to make it interesting.
If you're a woman and you'd like to know of a good movie to watch, "The Amati Girls" is one I'd recommend. It's a great story about four sisters and the varying types of unhappiness they suffer in their marriages/lives. I rented it from the library since Netflix doesn't carry it, but for the love of me I cannot find the shell for the video and have to return it soon. St. Anthony, help me find where my little ones put it!

That's all for today, another good day and back issues are good- thanks  Dr. G.